Written on Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I am back from 2 days MC yet again..The baby is already 10 weeks and i am still throwing up like a crazy women. My gynae estimated it to last till 12 weeks..ya rite!!I hope it will go away ASAP..Its totally unbearable.I lost 2 kg again..AGAIN..can you believe it!! i am suppose to gain weight like mad now but instead i am losing weight. I hope i don't give up and admit myself into hospital with the stupid IV drip on my hand again to make me feel better.Ok enuf of dat.
I spent my weekend at home most of the time, except for Sunday nite.Went out to woodlands for hubby's bro engagement. All the best for the both of you. Make sure it lasts this time round.
Oh ya, let me just blog about this for my own knowledge.He is out. Like finally.We spoke on the phone for the 1st time after i stopped writing to him the day i got married to hub..and seriously i hated myself for remembering his voice in an instant.Conversation went pretty general till i told him i am married.Dude,i know u tried your best to hide that disapointment/sadness in your voice, but seriously, you gotta try harder.Dont let me catch you feeling sad.After years of making me feeling like shit,(before i met hub of course!)its ur turn now to squirm in jealousy, anger or watever it is..Its just too late..The letters we exhanged since 2002 is best meant to be forgotten. 2002, well even i don't know that i will be settling down happily with the man whom i picked over you..i didn't know dude..cos if i did, i would never have entertain you with my letters and as wat u said, giving you hope..too bad..u hurt me, its your turn now..the best part is knowing that you are hurt..seems that the day i waited has finally arived ..but i got to praise you for your courage to talk to me yesterday, and holding on to that convesation with me...Go ahead, pretend that you are not hurt or stung by my words..Hehe jahat sak..Anyway, i certainly wished you all the best in ur life... i no longer hate you..It was our first and last conversation.I do not want to hear from you ever again. Cos as spoken, if i am given a choice all over again, , i would rather be with my hubby right from he start...take care dude!!
